Titsalina Bumsquirt

Don't know why I gave it that title, I just fancied doing something different, that is a "nice" way of cursing if you have done something wrong instead of saying "shit" or even "fuck", I'm guessing to the extra prude, it would still sound rude lol

Well, bugger me senseless with a barge pole and a bar of soap. (no, I'm not into that, it's just something I say when I'm in shock or something like that lol) Mum phoned yesterday I think it was, and said that they (they being Mum, Dad, Clare & Amy) will be coming to see us on Tuesday next week. I nearly died of shock when she told me. It's because she has to be in Cannock at some point on that day for her pre-op blood test and she or Dad decided it would be good to visit me whilst they're over here, they're going to pizza hut too, so I'll either see them before or after they have eaten, it depends upon what they decide to do. I'm still surprised that they have/are going to made the effort to come and see us whilst they're in the area.

Mum is going in for her operation on her knees on Thursday next week, I'm actually really worried for her, she's having both knees replaced at the same time :O I couldn't believe it when they said they'd do both at once. At least she'll recover in half the time that she would have done if they did one after the other. I don't envy her in the slightest, yes it would be nice to not have knackered and very painful knees, but I don't think I'd want that doing in a hurry. I hope that she comes through the op OK. I have to arrange visiting times when I'm going to go and see her, we'll have to take the children though, so they'll have to be on their very best behaviour.

Simon is at Sainsbury's stocking up on Easter eggs, I've told him to spend £15 on the small ones, then the kids can have 3 each and then there'll be 9 left for the rest of the family, it doesn't matter that they are small, if people are not grateful they can have nothing lol. Kids will be moregrateful of three smaller eggs with different bits inside than one big egg. Though they have been spoilt by Emma who has bought them a big cadburys easter egg each, they'll not think anything of what we have gotten them (or will have gotten them when Simon gets them rofl)

My health? Well, I've dropped down even further, now only on 10mg baclofen, 250mg Lyrica but have had to go back up to 200mg of tramadol for the pain because it has been so unbearable, he did mention that I could still take tramadol. I'm going to write to the psychiatrist and explain that I do not need to see him anymore because I am practically off my tablets (well still a way to go yet, but I'm definitely getting there) and the oxygen is gone, but as for the mobility it's just not possible with the amount of pain it causes.

I haven't been sick for about 4 days now, but then again I've not really eaten anything that would make me sick either so I can't rule it out as being back to normal, I shall have to try a solid meal, perhaps gammon and chips with Simon tonight, that's not too stodgy if I only have a small portion of chips :) Nah, I'll let the kids have the gammon and I'll stick to my yoghurts and soups i think, I don't want to be sick again. *makes mental note to take gammon out of freezer*

lol I'm addicted to We Rule and Zombie Farm, they're two games on the iPhone/iPod that I am playing, Bronny plays them on the iPod whereas I play them on the iPhone heheh, I've just planted a crop of potatoes in We rule which will be ready in 6 hours and a crop of tomatoes in Zombie farm which will be ready in four hours :) I haven't planted any more zombies as I already have 4 growing in the ground, and I have 14 live Zombies so I can only have two of those Zombies that are "born", I had a dead one this morning which is a shame, but it's one out of the 40 odd Zombies I have created, so when you look at it like that, it's not too bad.

Simon seems to be taking forever, I hope he's OK and the eggies are the price that they say they are on the website, otherwise I'll be owing him even more money lol.

Right, time for me to bugger off now, I have a headache coming on from sitting with my neck cricked :S

Huggles to all x

Getting There

Well then well then....

Since seeing the psychiatrist person in the beginning of February, I have now come off the oxygen and I am working my way towards coming off the medication, you see he said that the majority of my symptoms are caused by my medication, so I have to come off them and see what is left, obviously the pain won't have gone because the pain wasn't caused by medication, the medication was mainly to prevent the pain, which didn't work of course as I am always in pain.

So far I have dropped Baclofen from 50mg a day to 30mg, Tramadol has been dropped from 250mg a day to 150mg and lyrica 500mg - 350mg I'm dropping that one slower.

Since starting to come off the medication I have had a serious bout of sickness, practically every day I have started throwing up everything I have eaten in the evening, it's getting to the point that I've only been eating liquids, so that I don't have to puke up solids as I panic when I'm puking up really bad thick yuck. Sorry for the detail :( Doc says it's nothing to do with coming off the meds as I am not on any sickness meds, but I don't fully agree because I was fine before I started off dropping the medication down.

it's really strange to explain, before all this, if I missed a dose of meds or was late in having them I would yawn constantly none stop, right? Well, now I'm dropping the meds I'm yawning none stop especially after lunch, the problem is that my yawning is making me pull my vomit muscle, the one that propels the food up through the sphincter into my oesophagus, either that or the muscle is spasming now I'm on lower baclofen, either way I then can't stop being sick, I end up throwing up everything I have eaten that day. This is happening every day. I must be digesting SOME before I'm sick because I'd be seriously ill after three weeks of throwing up now surely? You'd think?

Anyway, enough talk of being sick :( I finally got Jane's letter finished the other day and she text me tonight to say she had received it :) that's a good thing because I've been writing it since January lol a three month letter, not bad eh? lol I'm sooooo lazy when it comes to writing letters, well I end up having to give up because of the pain in my wrist and hand (and fingers) so it takes me forever to handwrite a big letter because of all the breaks I have to have, shouldn't be months though lol a week at most heheh.

I feel a bit chilly at the moment, I'm going to have to put my jumper on, which is mainly used for going downstairs because it's always bloody freezing down there thanks to two leaky outside doors letting all the heat out and cold in. bleugh.

So.. anything else to report? Oh I saw Julie after about 6 years the other week, they came round on a Sat and the children enjoyed their company, Euan behaved and didn't show off, infact he ended up going up on his PC because he was bored, ignorant bugger lol. Becky is 14 now, I can't believe it, she seemed only a wee dot when I saw her last, and James too, he's grown up, and I cannot believe that Daniel is 18 this year (was 18) I can remember him as a wee baby, all small and defenceless lol and now he's a young adult! Bloody hell time flies, that must mean that I have known Julie for 18 years then! Blinking flip now that's a long time to have known her for! lol. I can remember when I used to stay at her house in Swadlincote on the sofa being attacked by the bloody cat all night... them were the days, we saw each other less and less as I got involved with the ex, because he didn't like me going out and visiting my friends, he was a barsteward in that account.

Right I'm going to bugger off now because I have a virtual dog to play with (don't laugh at me, I'm not allowed a real doggy ever!)

Huggles.

xx