click click, finally got it!

My camera arrived on Fri 25th, which wasn't bad considering I only bought it on Thursday 24th! I still have to remember to give feedback on it *posts a mental note* I'm over the moon with it, I was initially disappointed with my ability to use the supermacro option, but upon looking at the pictures on a lappy screen rather than the 2.5inch screen on the camera, I can actually say that the pictures were actually better than I first thought them to be. So I'm happy now. Just need to learn how to use it properly as it's not just an auto click and shoot camera, well it can be, but it has lots of other options too, like changing the speed, the aperture, the ISO and everything completely changing how a picture looks, I wish I knew how to use it, a camera course would cost a bit of money though unless we could do it on benefits, as Si would probably be interested in doing the course too.

Spent all Sat money yet again on milk money (£40!) and shopping, one day I will have this money to myself heheh, I can't complain though because I did spend all that money on my camera on Thursday. Which reminds me I'll need to put next month's money in with the rent to make up for spending the full £250 when only having £189 to pay back into it, so I'll have no money next week either.

I need to start paying the bill on my catalogue before I start getting charged interest on it :S though I've not actually had a statement yet so it means that the bill hasn't been created, so I will have to wait for it to be created before I can set up a standing order of £5 a week to pay it off, unless I just put that money in the advantage account and then just pay off £20 a month off the bill every month, not decided how to do it yet. Will have to have a serious think. I've not really got much to pay back anyway only having a credit limit of £175 and that was only because I put those orders through on a new account, so they transferred it to my old account and then decided that yes, I could have a credit limit heheh. I don't know whether to order something else once those returns have been calculated, I do need a couple of nice tops to wear with my jeans other than just a jumper, I need some thinner tunics too, to wear to people's houses where it's warmer in the house than it is outside, although I need to keep an eye on how much of their money I am spending because I don't have money every week to pay it back.

Well, the forum is well and truly dead now, hardly anyone comes on the forum, and when they do come on the forum they do one or two posts or not even any at all, and then bugger off, even the regular regulars are not posting anymore. :( I am so tempted to stop paying the fees and just let it die, there are plenty of other places we can all meet up to talk after all, although nowhere has the atmosphere that TN had, not towards me anyway.

Oh well, all good things have to come to an end I guess.

Euan has just said a VERY NAUGHTY word to Bronny. F You. :O I'm shocked, I know he hears that type of language on the pc games and at school but even so I've never heard him come out with that sort of thing before and I am disgusted at him, it just goes to show I'm not strict enough when it comes to language and I use too much of it myself in front of them :( *sobs* I will have to stop swearing in front of them, that way if they don't hear it at home, they won't say it at home and then hopefully they will learn that it is naughty to use that type of language anywhere. So whether it be PC games, or me, it's my fault anyway as I am letting both children be witness to foul language.

Weather looks threateningly like rain today, it's warmish in the house being a temperature of 26.5, that's probably quite warm for this time of year, but that's because of all the heat mats and heat bulbs in this room, and not forgetting the new loft insulation is doing it's job! heheh

I'm going to go out and do a photo shoot of my beautiful wabbitses when the shopping delivery has arrived (and gone) because I've not had a photoshoot for a while and certainly an excuse to use my new camera don't you think? It's just a shame that I can't spend more time with them, but I am sure they are both fine as they have always been wabbit wabbits and not humans wabbits (they would rather keep each other's company than make friends with me) although when being held to tidy up her skirt, Jasmin seemed to enjoy the cuddle even though she gave me a good old stamp of her feet when I let her go lol, she's such a moody bugger.

We've changed our preferences of which school Bronny is going to, simply because next door called our first choice (based on Bronny's initial request) the school from hell, especially if you're a girl, if you're a boy and go to school with short hair and it's too short, you're placed in isolation until it grows to a reasonable length! and one male pe teacher called next door's daughter's friend an anorexic cow. Hannah has had a few run ins with teachers too, with them picking on her calling her ginge for instance, and last year shotgun shells were found on the school premises so police were swarming the school for days looking for evidence and not one parent was told about it, they didn't even send a letter out to reassure the parents that had found out about it. The school bus to Norton was cancelled because of drug dealing and fighting! It sounds like a right hell hole. I'm glad that Simon asked next door what they think now :) *phew*

Obviously to protect Bronny in the future I am not going to state what school she will hopefully be going to, we'll just have to wait and see.

That's me all bloggled now.

Huggles

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waiting....

for Thursday to come so that I can order my camera to arrive on Friday :D woot. I can't wait. I had the choice of waiting a month and buying a bottom of the range SLR camera but Simon said I would probably not notice the difference between the standard S5100 from the whatever it is that is an SLR camera (twice the price) Simon said a mid-range SLR would cost me 500 - 600 and that would take me at least 3 months to save for and I know that's not possible so I am going for the standard camera on Thursday heheh.

Euan keeps pestering me for a sweetie, which is really annoying, I shouldn't buy sweeties, I always feel used when I buy sweeties and the children nag me for them all the time. It's sweetie buying day tomorrow though, I can just feel those yummilicious sweeties in my mouth, especially the fizzy sweeties like cola bottles and the fizz bomb sweeties. I shouldn't waste money on sweeties and my teeth are going to be in a bad condition for tomorrow (we have the dentist at 09:40) but I want I want lol I'm so bad! Sweeties will be after the dentist which seems a bit contradictive heheh.

Bronny has gone on Crossfire heh, she has been nagging me for ZP so that she can buy an axe but I THINK it would cost me £10 for her to have an axe so I might ignore her for as long as possible, she does deserve a treat for helping Simon so much when I was in an arse though, I was so pissed off that he had not even tried to fit my bedside table in because he THOUGHT it wouldn't fit, I told him I didn't care what happened to the room as long as I had my bedside table, and until I started whining like a biatch, he wasn't going to give me one either. That's why Bronny ended up helping him and not me, because I was pissed with him for not doing me a bedside table rofl anyway it wasn't about that. I guess giving her £10 of ZP is cheaper than buying her something which is £19.99. Especially as once the £19.99 thing has run out it will be useful, at least with ZP she'll have the axe for a long time, until she sells it that is.

Yadda yadda.

I can't see Tia anymore :( which is not fair in the slightest :( I want to be able to see her :( She is in the faunarium inside the viv, and it's because she's in the viv that I cannot see her, it was OK when she was on my desk because I could see her, but now she's way up there I can't see her anymore.

Simon is out at the doctors, he has a chest infection (he thinks) so he's gone to the docs to ask for some anti-biotics. He's been breathing badly for well over a week now and he has been coughing at night a bit, also he's been sweating literally buckets over the last few days too, which normally means that he is fighting some kind of infection be it viral or bacterial. He's been quite a while so far, I hope that he's not waiting for too long, it's nearly an hour after when his appointment was due :(

He has just come home and told me that they had booked five people in at the same time and there was only one doctor covering it.

Apparently he doesn't have a chest infection, although his syptoms are that of a chest infection, it's his inhaler that is not actually working and hasn't been working for some time which has caused his symptoms now.

I will have to go now it's Euan's bedtime....

Huggles x

Move

Well, we have finished moving the room around, the only problem that I have now is that the stuff I had stored behind my desk now has to find a loving home elsewhere and there isn't actually anything that I could throw away :( It's all needed otherwise it would have already been thrown away. At this moment in time Bronny's bedroom is an absolute tip and she can't even get in her wardrobe because it is stacked to bursting with my stuff that now doesn't have a home :S I don't know what to do with it all, I haven't even started trying to find a home for it all because I know there is nowhere to bloody put it, I have been left with 0zero storage space, complete zilch, I was supposed to be having the cupboard but all Simon's stuff is in there so there is now no room for me. If you look at it, this room is Simon's room and I'm just squished in at the last minute, he hasn't thought about me and what I want in the slightest, he's just designed the room around him how HE wants it and then left me to do what I do and sit on the bed, at least he's not taken that away from me, at least I still have the bed to rest on and to sit on whilst on my laptop. It took a lot of pissyness and bickering for me to even get my bedside table, I can only hope that it all still fits when he gets his viv stack.

Tehya is sitting on top of the python, and until I complained to Simon about the heat, she was suffering in a temperature of 32degreesC all over her faunarium when it's a maximum of 31 degrees in the HOT end, supposed to be, poor little mite, after quite a bit of moaning last night and again this morning he agreed to help me raise Tehya's viv so that it wasn't being heated by the python's ceramic bulb underneath which kicks out a LOT of heat. Thankfully after lifting her an inch off the python's tank the heat from the ceramic bulb is escaping and not going straight into Tehya's viv above him. At least we know that when the viv stack arrives, the python has GOT to be on top, there's no other order that is possible, unless the heat from the ceramic bulb is used in the place of a heat mat but then it can't be controlled, can't be just turned down to stop it heating the viv above too much because that would be detrimental to the python.

I shouldn't complain though, the room does look nicer as it is now instead of all over the place like it was and at least both of our spideys have a home too, would be nice for them to have a home each in the viv stack though, would look really nice. Oscar seems to like the new layout too, only because he gets more Lizard catching space, have had to tell him off about four times already for trying to swipe at Rex. *rolls eyeballs*

Rent is only going to be four days late this month, have already worked out that October's rent will be on 8th Oct bang on which is when it SHOULD be paid.

Now, the Green Paper. I think it's a load of crap, utterly truly wuly, it's just a way for the government to get lots of money back from the people who most need it and feed it into the social services where that person lives, which means I will then have to rely on the social services to get us about, we'd lose the car, Simon would have to go out and find a job and I would be left on my own to look after the children and myself, so I'd have to go out and get myself a mobility scooter somehow (what chances have I got unless someone pays for it for me?) so I could take the children to school and back, yes I would relish the chance, but not if it means that I am to be on my own or trying to work. I mean how the hell can they find me a job when I am asleep for half of the waking hours, I am depressed, I can't think straight and I can't sit for a long time, I can't stand up, I can't walk, I can't do a sit down job because that inevitably means using a pc or doing something repetitive which I cannot do because that hurts my arms, and I can't sit in the same position for more than 10 minutes without getting back ache and having to lie down to rest my spine, I can't see any job allowing me to lie down and rest every so often. It's impossible, there's the fact about short term memory loss too, there's no way I could deal with customers because I would forget what I had told them or done about it. Then there's the fact that I don't know what I'm doing half of the time never mind anyone else, it would not be fair to expect me to work in a work environment. Not forgetting the vertigo, that is so bad I cannot turn my head. I can see lots of disabled people complaining about this and there is no way on earth they could have asked real disabled people what they think about it, they will probably have asked those who are able to work and earn quite a bit of money doing it, not those who are stuck at home and cannot go out to work.

I'm sad now because I'm scared for our future, if they take away the disability we will have to live on the child tax credits, and also be expected to pay bills and feed and clothe ourselves with that pittance that I get. We will also lose the car which is what we need to get around as a family, we would never be able to visit our relatives again, because buses never run on time and at the same time, for instance to go to Tamworth, it used to take 2 - 3 hours on the train or the bus, because the connection times were wrong, the trains didn't run consecutively, so we'd have to wait an hour or more just to get the next bus when Tamworth is only 20 minutes away by car. There is NO way we'd be able to visit Christina and Gary.

The government needs to STOP allowing all these immigrants into the country, the gates should be shut and locked tight and we only let the English people back in, and those travelling on holiday. We are giving far too much money away to other countries by having their people in our Country, I'm not being racist, it's a fact. They come to this country, they get given benefits, housing benefit, income support and even disability in some cases. We should be like Australia and Canada, there should be a points system and you should have to have something to give the country instead of take take take.

I hate this country I really do, I wish we could emigrate to a country that is sensible and not selfish and all the fat cats getting fatter whilst the skinny people get skinnier and die. :(

*stops thinking about it* I wish I wasn't part of the group that keeps telling me all of this stuff now actually, I'd rather be kept in the dark, I really would, it's scary knowing what they are doing next.

If you want more information about what I have waffled on about, or you are confused as to what I'm talking about, please email me at carol.venables@gmail.com and I'll provide you with more information. Or you can leave a message here :)

I'm off now heheh


Huggles.

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hello world

I'm in the mood for waffling and as there is no-one around that wants to listen to me waffle, I thought I would come on my blog and waffle here, that way you can just scroll past the crap if you want to. Not sure how many people read this now it's actually public, not even sure I should have made it public, but as long as I don't type anything damning I should be OK. I won't be done for slander if I don't slander anyone lol not that I would anyway unless they had really wronged me.

Forum isn't doing "too bad" of late, at least there has been more than one member on at times and there is a few new posts to reply to at least. I notice on Vikki's posts that she has a posh camera, that one has been discontinued though, I think the one I am after is practically the same it's just been given a new name. I hope it is as good anyway. That's nothing personal to Vikki by the way, Ijust noticed her camera on the pics she has been taking lately is all.

We're off to Nottingham tomorrow to a fish place to trade Simon's snakeheads in for Oscar/s I THINK he's only going to get one though, the rest of his credit note will probably end up being spent on food for said Oscar, have to get up early because Si doesn't want me to be in bed still at lunchtime when he wants to either have been and gone or already be there. I just want to makek the most of the rest of the holiday's lie-ins and he's spoiling it by making me get up lol he claims that I should be getting up early to get used to getting up at 7.30 again to get the kids off to school, I would never be ready for 7:30 starts and never get used to them, I just physically cannot be doing with getting up that early regardless of what time I go to bed, I just have to do it without complaint 5 days a week so many weeks in a year. Never mind before we know it, it'll be half term and I'll be able to start all over again with my "lunchtime lieins" lol, well strictly speaking it's mid morning to me, I get up between 10:30 and 11:00am, for a lie-in that's not bad considering my lie-ins lasted until gone lunchtime when I lived at home rofl

Bleugh I feel sick, I've just glugged half a pint of summerfruit squash and it's made me feel rather sicky heheh. Simon is complaining that he is stuffed from all the mash he ate, all I'm saying is he didn't HAVE to eat that much, he could have put some by for tomorrow or something, I only made so much because we had run out of peas, he ate it anyway so it's his fault for feeling totally stuffed lol

I have this window open doing my blog (tab I mean) and the other tab is someone plowing at my farm for me :) heheh I am sooooooooo lazy all I do is sit and watch them harvest and plow so all I have to do is the sowing of seeds, I wish they could do that too lol I'd love to be able to watch the little people doing everything for me whilst I just sit here and watch. I don't know why I bother playing it anymore heheh, I always end up getting others to do stuff then grumble when planting seeds.

Watched Penelope, heheh it was good, not as good as I thought it would be but it's good, I think I would have done the same as her, if I had been kept in hiding for all those years I would have run away and found life. It's a shame that she had to lose the nose that she grew up with but she became beautiful for having got rid of the curse. If I were to be cursed like that I think I would have wanted to do the same thing as she did.

I'm definitely waffling now, I'm off to bed I think, more than past my bedtime judging by the last few days/weeks.

I hope that all is well in the world tonight, and that all my friends are snuggled up in their beds to sleep tight.

Huggles

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