fed up now :(

TOday is a depression day, was fine until I read Simon's answers on the forum to Wednesday's dailies about his parents being proud of him, NOT that he is a carer and then a post that says he is pretty disappointed for himself but he intends to do better...

I am so holding him back from doing whatever he wants to do in life, socially as well as academically and business wise too :( poor man is stuck at home looking after me instead of out doing an interesting job or learning more at college.

I wonder how much he resents me for the fact that he is stuck at home and ccannot do anything because he is stuck at home with me :( it's just not fair at all. :( I wish I was better so that he didn't have to stay at home with me so he could go out and get himself a rewarding job for instance, and that I had a job in the week so that we had weekends as family and actually have money to go somewhere instead of saving up for days just to go to the zoo or something, infact the zoo wouls mean saving up for weeks/months even.

I don''t even knokw what I am blabbing on about right now, I'm so unbelievably monged and tired and poorly like I have been the past few days, all this week I've been crappy actually.

The rats desperately need cleaning out and I don;t have the energy or brain power to do them I am well and truly mongerood indeed. "mongerood" another word made up by my mongedness lol Ouch pain in my right leg, feels like the muscles is being ripped out, the one on the inside of the leg, in fact it's tendon not muscle. I think it;s the position of my leg to be honest.

I give up on this I think, I am not making sense in my head, I just wanted to blog as it's been so long since I blogged.

Oh yeah.... I've managed to put in to swap the bold for the curve so I just have to hand this one in when the pack arrives, then as soon as next saturday comes I can order the new curve which is called a javelin apparently. Hopefully I'll have more chance with getting things to work on that one instead of my bold which seems to be programmed for business only and not social use.

*goes to look at the new curve*

It's not much different to the bold, I can't believe they changed it so much :( naughty people, the curved lines on the curve were really pretty and looked far nicer than the new curve. Oh well, looks are not everything I have learned to remember very well.

HOPEFULLY all the things will work properly on the curve and I will be able to download instant messenger and just use it immediatel y and make everything work as good as it should instead of missing out on various applications just because the phone is no good :( *pout*

*yawn* I'm off now. loves ya'll.

a quick one

This is a post done on my mobile I just wanted to see if it was possible and yes it is :)

Oops Simon is stirring heheh phew he's gone back off. He would complain about the clicking if he woke up properly, this phone hasn't exactly got quiet buttons!

Today I been mostly eating toast (you'll only find that remotely funny if you've ever watched the fast show heheh)

Right I better bugger off as it's 00:53 right now lol

Night night

It's arrived

New phone arrived yesterday, Blackberry Bold 9000, it's fun :) I love the QWERTY keyboard, it makes sending text messages a doddle and I can get gmail on there which means I can send emails too, which is pretty good should I be needing an urgent email for some reason, I mean should I need to receive one to confirm something I can just check it on the old BB. The internet is cool too, the screen makes it a little awkward being so small but I am sure I will get used to it, I can always change it to column view which means it will split down forums into columns, pretty much like the DS used to, so I can type in them and post that way without losing out.

I've done a few posts on tamed nature with it and haven't had a single problem, viewing the forum isn't that bad either, I just need good eyesight, I'm missing out on a full screen that comes with some of the phones out there today but I think having a qwerty keyboard more than makes up for that, especially such a nice one with nice keys anyway, I can't stand my old K850i with it's raised buttons, they were actually painful to use, the BB is nice and smooth and doesn't hurt your fingers when the keys are pressed.

Only thing that bothers me is that I have removed maps accidentally by updating the operating system, I wasn't to know that it was something that vodafone put on especially and that it wasn't available as a blackberry thing for free. I will have to phone customer services on Monday and ask what I can do about putting them back on the phone, I don't NEED them but as it's a free service I might as well make the most of it.

Simon thinks I am going to be sending the phone back but I'm not, I love it, there are a few things that I would personally improve if it were up to me, but as it is, it's a lovely phone and I'm keeping it, I think the screen size of the curve is a little larger but what is a few mm when it boils down to it, it's not exactly going to make that much difference, size DOESN'T matter, otherwise I would be patient and await the Iphone. me patient? Yeah right and arabs don't get sand in their shoes ever.

I've done a shop, which actually really turned out to be a cheap shop, I planned for a cheap shop and I succeeded! There are far more things that I COULD have gotten but with being a cheap shop I had to just stick to the essentials. WHICH is unusual for me but I did succeed. No doubt I have forgotten something that we get on a weekly basis and I haven't got it this week. I remembered potatoes, bread and baps for Simon (baps for Simon not all of those things) and pizzas for the children, I got baked beans x 2 lots of 4 as they are on offer and baked beans make up part of many a different meal that Simon will eat. I think I managed to add ONE bag of gala apples to the list, they're MINE, I'm addicted to apples.

Trying to remember when I last had a proper meal, I think it was Thursday evening when we had fish and chips from the chip shop, I had jumbo sausage, fish cake, a small amount of chips and mushy peas, I was hungry after not eating a proper meal for a week. I tend to snack on apples and bowls of cereal these days, I'm not losing weight as quickly as I was, but I guess if I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast to get the metabolism going that I would be doing a far better job at it.

On that note, I shall sign off.

rude pigs

oinks oinks, O2 still haven't contacted me to tell me that the order has been declined even though I know they cancelled it on the website, how rude of them, I could have been stupid and had a day off work to wait in for it for nothing (if I worked and if I was THAT stupid (I'd only call in sick if they had said they were delivering next day lol))

Anyway sod them, sod the iphone, I have ordered the BlackBerry Bold with Vodafone I ordered the BlackBerry Curve because I like the look of that but they gave me the offer of the bold instead which is good because it's the next one in the line from the curve, it's the one before the Storm which I didn't like so hopefully the Bold will impress me better. Simon is still going on about the iphone being bigger screen and that I'll end up sending it back because of the screen size etc, but I won't I'll only send it back if it's faulty or there is something about it I didn't know and it's really horrible. Michelle has the BlackBerry Curve as her mobile and she was talking to me from work on her mobile messenger with it heheh.

I have got unlimited texts and unlimited internet and email with it which is really good because it means when I'm out and about I can use EDGE/3G so I don't have to sit bored in the car when we've gone somewhere or something like that.

My toe hurts :( It's ingrown but I can't do anything about it because I have to wait for the podiatrist to have a look on 24th March so she can see if they are troublesome and not growing properly (the nails) or whether it was that one off that she repaired, even though it's not a one off because I'm always fixing it.

Kids are playing outside burning some energy off at the moment, they were racing around the house like a pair of loons so I sent them outside to burn off their pain in the ass excess energy off lol. It looks like the weather is changing and it is going to rain though so I might have to get them in at some point soon.

I have gotten up too soon really I am still monged with spasms and numbness and aches and my head is spinning and I keep feeling like I'm going to pass out, I haven't gone back to bed though because I wanted to give the children some time out to play.

Uh oh sounds like Simon is coming which means they will end up being called in because he'll decide they are being too loud or too naughty or something *rolls eyes* poor kids can't say boo when he is in one of those all is power moods lol.

Just looked at the television and it is completely filthy with finger prints and smears on it, I'm surprised that Simon hasn't complained because he has to have perfect TV perfect screen when he's watching it, I guess he's slackened off a bit unless he's awaiting me to clean it for him and he's seeing how long I will tolerate it for :S

Kids are trying to get the ball over the fence again by the looks of it *gets up to tell them off*
*sits back down* ahhh I think that they totally ignored me, I have just seen it going sky high! Oh well, I've told them if it goes over again it's going to stay over, let's see if they listened at all. Bronny was sitting on the path when I looked out the window, she's going to catch her death of cold or whatever one says.

Forum has proved to be not dead yet which is a relief, we have had lots of new members but I've not actually seen them in action, poor tic tac got her fingers burned when she came on and probably won't come on again, she only wanted to know about ferrets because she needs to have her Jenny mated, apparently if a Jenny ferret doesn't mate she will die that's a pretty rough proposition to live with ain't it? heheh.

I'm quite looking forward to getting my phone tomorrow heheh, last time I waited for my phone the time was going so god damn slow I couldn't believe it, it was if minutes had turned into hours seriously, it was a bummer. Hopefully it will turn up tomorrow AND reasonably early again instead of waiting for it for hours. It's Royal Mail though so I might be waiting for quite some time and it might not even arrive tomorrow she said if it doesn't arrive tomorrow it will be by Monday latest! Do they have that much reliance in Royal Mail or is it because of something she did accidentally on the order and didn't know how to correct it?

I wish I had kept the sim card for that mobile now the number was actually quite a memorable one which I have forgotten now but I know that it was a number that would be easy to shout out to people for them to get it in their phones so they contact me on the BlackBerry instead of the K850i. I hope on all hopes that Vodafone doesn't use the same masts that are used by Orange and I get the same problem around here with Vodafone, that would really piss me off indeed because I'd have to send yet another phone back and then wait properly without touching mobile phone internet sites until September. That would kill me but at least I'd have the Iphone then (possibly, there is no saying that O2 would give me a contract then either lol) I guess instead of being bound in a contract with Vodafone for 12 months by the time September comes (6 months will already have passed)

I am going to love the BlackBerry though, I HAVE to, I have to ignore the jaunts from Simon about it not being as great as his poxy Iphone and just plod on as if nothing is happening in the outside world and I am sure that my phone will be brilliant and I'll really like it. I don't think I'd get on very well with the touch screen anyway, because when I tried to use it I was pressing wrong letters and getting all confused and I ended up sending a text to an mnvx' or something like that because I couldn't use the onscreen keyboard.

Hopefully I'll be able to use the individual buttons of the BlackBerry, I'm betting that it'll make my laptop feel like a giant when I've used the BB for a while (because the BB is so much smaller)

I'm not asking for miracles although I've seen what Simon's phone can do and I already know that the Bold's screen is way small, but it is bigger than the screen on my K850i so I have to remember that, I have to look away from the brilliantness of the Iphone and the way that it is calling for me, the contract is just way too pricy at £54.40 a month it's nearly double what I am going to be paying for Vodafone and is MORE than double for what I pay for on Orange. At least I'll be able to cancel the Orange contract in Septemberk and put the phone in a drawer or something, because the contract will be over so I'll not have to send them the phone back.

Emma has hurt her foot and the bruising is quite bad I have asked her to get it looked at because it doesn't look right to me, she's as bad as Simon as far as going to doctors goes, a right stubborn bugger. Hopefully nothing wil happen to it whilst she is in Canada with her made Chris, hopefully it will just stay fine and she will be safe and sound on her journeys. I really envy her, going to Canada heheh Jammy bugger that she is.

Right, time to sign out and sort out what we're having for dinner now. Ni ni for now.

xx

hmmm

I tried again with O2 today presuming that my credit rating would have been updated with the fact that Vodafone contract has been cancelled. I have a credit risk assessment referral come through this time so I have to await the decision on that, I know it's going to say "pay us £100 and we'll give you a phone" so I have no chance of having an Iphone until I've saved up, or until a few weeks, who says they'll keep it open for me, I might have to re-try in a few weeks and then be point blank refused because the record will show various failed credit checks.

I don't know what they will be deciding about or what information they will have been given to decide from, hopefully they will see that I have had an account with Orange for 12 months now and that I've paid every single bill on time and correctly, hopefully they will realise that I am honest and will pay my bills on time, I will be able to afford this as long as we don't go stupid on the shopping again, if I can keep the shopping bills down every time I shop I'll be able to afford the £54.40 a month for 18 months eeeek that's a lot of money but hopefully after time of being with them IF IF IF they let me I'd be able to cut it down.

I shouldn't even have jinxed myself with that, the answer is going to be no f. off or not unless you pay such and such money towards a safety deposit.

I am not lucky enough for them to have decided that I can afford a new contract with them or that I am likely to pay them any money, I still have outstanding balances where I have not paid a penny towards them for a start, I have to sort this out and agree to pay some money towards them so that it improves my credit rating a little to show that I am actually starting to pay my due.

It's not going to make a difference to O2's credit check though, they've already done it and they are making a decision FROM THAT not from anything else, not even if I did something today to affect the credit rating would it help.

Sitting here thinking it's going to be no isn't going to make a bearing on someone's decision. They are either going to phone me to discuss it and THEN tell me they want money, or they are going to email me and ask me to call THEM, there ain't no way they will say yes :(

Loggin out...

It came, I'm pissed, it's going back

Not only could I not use the damn thing no matter how I tried, I found that I couldn't do anything with it, when I went to set up the email it said something about setting up an exclusive account on a blackberry server or something and to talk to my network administrator to get the details of the account. Obviously a business bit, BUT the blurb said that with the REVOLUTIONARY BlackBerry email (coughs) you could push your personal accounts through so that you can receive your email on the go wherever you are? PAH. That wasn't the worst of it, when I came to check out the world wide webby it told me that I was out of area and I had to find a zone to use 3G!! So I didn't get www access either, no internet poo poohy. That was about it already I already had the box sitting waiting for the phone to be carefully repackaged and sent back to Vodafone on the dot. Oh, touch screen? Is it bollox, the screen is on a rocker system so basically depending on where you touched on the screen would depend on where you touched on the pads underneath that receive the information to send to the processor of the little bugger. Oh and it wasn't little either, the overall LOOK of the phone is beautiful, it's such a shame that it failed on so many accounts, otherwise I would have kept her based on sheer looks heheh.

I have decided grudgingly after Simon refused to even try to see if he can add another phone onto his call plan, that I am going to wait 6 months until my Orange contract expires with Orange and try again with O2, I mustn't try again sooner than 6 months because I will make it even longer before the credit history clears itself, according to Orange way back when I was trying to get another contract with them, I was to contact them again in another 6 months time so that the credit history had cleared itself from the last request for a credit check for mobile phones. Hopefully by this time the vodafone one will have completely left the system and there will be a clear way for me to order the O2 phone so that I can then quit the orange contract and have an O2 contract with a beautiful iphone too :)

I am soooo damn annoyed with myself for applying for the stupid blackberry from Vodafone instead of applying for the iphone from O2, I bet I would have been awarded the contract and not been refused if I had been sensible and done it that way, I am so damn annoyed I could punch myself quite literally in the head, in fact I had to stop myself from doing this this morning when it sank in, what I had done, when O2 said no f. off you're not having a phone with us.

Oh what a prat I am, a complete and utter prat, I cannot believe that I did what I did, so so stupid, so so stupid indeed.

I might be able to be released from my Orange account in July which would leave me free to order another phone but it will only be 4 months down the road from now so my credit rating might not have cleaned itself up. I think I HAVE to be patient and wait 6 months from NOW, and then I will be able to walk away from my Orange contract and get myself an iphone on an O2 contract. Of course I will actually phone O2 tomorrow and see if they do second phones on accounts and if they will do a second phone as an Iphone. If they say yes I will play my trump card with Simon and actually make him see that he is going to save money instead of losing money. Will have to wait until tomorrow now though as there is no chance that the call centre will be open at this time of night.

It's coming tomorrow :)

My Blackberry storm will arrive tomorrow apparently, which I am weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeely excited about, not sure which courier though so it might be a really early one, like the one that Simon gets stuff from, I'll get myself up at 7am and go downstairs then and we'll see if it comes that early or not heheh. Only problem with that is that the children will insist on getting up too which means that they will be up and mega hyper by the time it's school time, or Euan will have worked himself up to being naughty if they fight enough.

Talking about their fighting (will get back to the phone shortly) I am rather pissed at them to be honest, all they do is fight these days, I just cannot seem to stop them belting the crap out of each other all the time they are awake, it's not ALL the time, sometimes you'll see them in the same room sitting together watching TV, or in one of their rooms playing on their DS's or something, but most of the time they are usually fighting and ripping each other to shreds. I could just blame it on Euan's behaviour, but I've seen Bronny give Euan a sneaky punch and kick more than now and again... I just don't know what to do, maybe every time they do it smack them one myself? BUT then that will be showing them that every hit deserves a hit back which won't teach them anything at all. We've shouted at them when they've ripped each other apart and we've put them in their rooms, the only trouble is that when they are fighting in the morning we can't separate them because they are getting ready for school. Perhaps I could put them in their bedrooms for fighting in the morning when they get home from school, hopefully that will do something because I am at my wits end with them. It's just none stop constant fighting.

Now, my phone. I have ordered the blackberry storm but I am now kinda wishing that I had gone ahead and ordered the ipod after all. Simon says that 3G is incredibly slow and I'll hate the fact I cannot connect to the internet via the home connection. But it said it had a modem in it, so surely the modem will be faster than 3G? I don't think it would be so popular if it was that slow. Will have to wait and see. I have to be careful though because any downloads and browsing has to be paid for if the contract is cancelled, so I have to be careful how much I use it whilst I try and work out whether I want the phone or not. I should just order an iphone now so I get it the next day or something, but I don't know whether I can have another contract, whether they will use the recent credit check for a mobile against me, maybe I have to cancel the vodaphone contract first, but who says I'm not going to like the Blackberry. Simon is just all over his iphone, yes it is probably the very best phone out there at this present moment in time, but I don't think other phone companies are going to leave it TOO long before they come out with something that is equivalent. I think I'm just going to see what the blackberry is like, if it does what I want it to do then I will be happy, besides, I only want the internet side of it when I am piss bored in the kitchen waiting for dinner to cook, surely whatever the Blackberry has to offer will be enough? It's not as if I'm going to stream a program or anything whilst I'm in the kitchen, I'll only be looking at websites and stuff like that, or sending an email or something heheh.

I wonder what messenger programme I'll be able to put on it if any, I can sit talking to people whilst I'm cooking dinner then heheh that will be fun. :D

OUCH, I just peeled some skin off my lip and it's made it red raw and even bleed in some places. :S I thought it was a dead piece of skin, maybe it was but it was still connected to the bloody layers of skin underneath heheh *giggles nervously* Simon is playing his game AGAIN, we don't actually talk in the evenings anymore, I just sit here on lappy and if Simon is upstairs he is on his game, he's only downstairs watching TV when it's something I'm not really interested in watching.

We went to Wyevale garden centre this morning to look for a Mother's Day present for Simon's Mum and Simon had a flid because he couldn't get her anything he wanted because the prices were a little too high and I had told him that buying staple food for the family was slightly more important than getting a Mother's Day present, he obviously didn't agree in his mind because he ended up having one of his storming around sulking and then when we got home a "leave me alone" moment. He was pissed with me because I wanted to get red noses for the children ready for Friday and I had told him he couldn't spend much on his Mum :S I can understand why in a way but there was no need to be that pissy I TOLD him to spend what he wanted on his Mum and we'd rally round afterwards, but no, he decided a pissy fit was more appropriate. When my phone arrives tomorrow I'll have to suggest we go back out again and buy something and then we can go shopping with what he has left and what I have in my bank aftwards, I AM getting my kids red noses though even if I have to beg Emma to get some for them. Have just texted Em and asked if she will get them a couple of noses. At least I'm trying to, damn signal! lol

Text sent, now waiting to hear back from her, she'll probably tell me to fuck off or curse Simon lol or she'll think fuck off and call me all the names under the sun and tell me I'm a cheeky cow, but yes I am a cheeky cow and she did say that whenever I need her help I should shout, perhaps she didn't mean it literally though, perhaps it was one of those offers of help which are empty and the person hopes you'll never call them? No, Emma ain't like that, Emma is a one in a million star and I loves her to bits, she really does bend over backwards for me and my kiddies bless her heart. I shouldn't take the piss though, maybe I shouldn't have asked? I don't know I don't know what mood it will reach her in :(

Simon is still playing his game and it is now 10:21 heheh going to bed soon, tired and hurting tonight, in fact my foot feels broken lol (no, it's not, it's just hurting like a broken bone) I have suddenly come over tired, I was fine a few moments ago heheh, I think I might make myself a drink and then bugger off to bed.

Ni ni

Logging in difficulties

Geesh was it a bugger to log into my OWN blog tonight, I had to create a profile for google before I could do anything else, then I couldn't find the link ON google to come back to my blog so I ended up having to use my bookmarks to get back to it. I know the address to my blog but when I HAVE to remember it do you think that I can? no sireee.

I'm thinking of re-introducing all the rattie boys because Bart and Corny don't seem to be faring too well being on their little ownsome at the bottom of the cage, it is a bit " left out" I guess because you have to go down to ground height to say hello to them, lately they've been spending a lot of time in their hidey and it's only food stuff that brings them out, not their bowl of food, that is usually hardly touched, but when I give them something special they'll come to me. They seem somewhat depressed. Hannah has suggested having them castrated so I might look into that and see how much it will cost to have them both done. Hopefully that will calm them down enough to be able to reintroduce them into the group so they can all live happily ever after together in one BIG cage instead of having half of it each.

Simon's lizard seems to be settling in well, his blue tongued skink. Bronny said yesterday "it's got a blue tongue" and I said, "REALLY, THAT must be why it's called a blue tongued skink" sarcasm is the lowest form of wit but boy is it funny sometimes, although usually wasted on either of the children.

Phoned Mum tonight, in response to her phoning me earlier and me not being too talkative because I was busy watching Gameplan. heheh That was a good film, there was a teary bit, a happy bit, then a teary bit, and then a happy bit again heheh. Anyway, the call with Mum. The usual subject that she introduces nervously popped up again about the children seeing "his" parents and it making a big difference to their lives, we were talking about them being able to go on holiday with them and everything, then I turned round and said that I wouldn't mind them seeing them that it was Simon that was completely against it and I didn't want to go against Simon's wishes, Simon is only trying to protect me after all and he knows that in my right mind (ie not being drugged up all the time) that I wouldn't want them to be involved in their lives again, after quite some discussion about it, I said that Bronny would probably like to see them again and Bronny said "no I wouldn't" I didn't realise she was awake never mind listening to our conversation!! *blushes* so no Bronny wouldn't like to get involved with them again, that is the decision made then, she got quite tearful and upset when I finished on the phone and went into her and tried to explain WHY Nanny keeps going on about it, like how she'd feel if she couldn't see them anymore and Bronny got tearful thinking I was going to make her go. So I had to explain that I would never make her do something she didn't want to do. Which is the truth, if she wants nothing to do with them, like she said, she actually said "I don't want to know anyone who has something to do with him" bless her, he must have really upset her, well I know he used to shout at her and smack her all the time, that would make me not want to go to my Daddy's anymore if I constantly got told off when I went.

If Bronny WANTED to see her Nanny and Grandad again I wouldn't stop her though, even through all the crap we've been through and the fact that Simon wouldn't agree with it, I would let her see them, it's Bronwyn's family after all.

I might email them to tell them that Bronny has made the decision that she doesn't want to get involved with them at this time but I will keep them in touch with the children's progress at time to time.

It's only fair that they see pictures and progress of their grandchildren every now and again, I know I'd bloody want to know my Grandchildren, I would hate to have them taken away from me I really would.

It's not as though I have taken them away from them though, the children (Bronny) have always made the decision that they do not want to see them, not me, I would never take that decision away from them. Hopefully when Bronny is older she will see that they are not out to get her and take her away or anything like that and she will decide to see them after all they are getting on in their years, He must be 68 this year and she 66 so they will have both retired.

Perhaps I could persuade Simon to let them back in and then explain to Bronny that she doesn't have to see her Dad by letting them back into their lives, I would never forgive myself if they were to pass on without seeing them again just one last time or something.

Anyway.... *changes the subject* (can't you tell I feel guilty that they are not seeing them growing up)

Perhaps it is for the best, I mean, they'd only blame me for Bronny's shyness and inwardness and Euan's naughty behaviour.

I don't know, I'm so torn over this, it's just that Bronny is 10 this August, another 10 years and they will have missed them growing up....

*sigh*

Charlie has eaten her locust :) I think it's clever how she webs underneath her and "stands tall" when she is digesting her food, it didn't take her long either, I wonder if she might want another one? It won't harm to put another one in surely? It was only small? I'll have to ask Simon even though it was only a small meal for her she might not want to eat again for some time. DOn't want to waste a locust by having it die of starvation whilst waiting for her to want to eat it.

Simon thinks that his Goliath is moulting again because he/she has webbed him/herself back up in his/her cave. Geeesh it's only recently had one!

Fwog seems happier back in her mudpit style accomodation now, she's not buried herself anyway and they totally bury themselves when they are too hot, too cold or generally pissed off with their surroundings.

Rex seems happy and is growing and feeding well, he even feeds from his little plastic cup heheh. Simon fills it with brown crickets every morning and then Rex travels down the vine and sits and eats his breakfast, if Simon is too late then Rex will already be sitting there waiting for his breakfast when he does it lol bless him he has it almost like clockwork.

Simon's snake came out and did a lovely poo for him this morning, it didn't digest the mouse tail so that was completely whole in the very stinky poop heheh. I would imagine that it is stinky considering all it eats is protein foods, my poop would be stinky if I only ate meat, would be pretty slimy and yucky without any bulk too (ewwww)

I have eaten 2 apples and a bowl of cereal today, I wasn't empty enough to have something more filling, yesterday was two bowls of cereal and a banana and an apple and I felt very fat so I had to cut down today, I still feel OK, little and often they said, not quite sure whether I'm eating often enough but I'm only eating a little when I do eat, also the cereal is used in the 2 bowls a day and lose a dress size in two weeks scheme so if I just eat one bowl of cereal I should be able to lose even more. I occasionally have a proper meal though as I know that I can't just eat cereal and fruit that I have to have some source of protein.

OOoh, my battery actually lasted for a fair while this time as have only just had to plug in the charging unit, that makes a change, there are various settings that I could change to make the battery last even longer but that would affect the performance of the laptop and to be honest, as I am sitting next to a power socket most of the time either downstairs or upstairs, I might as well go for performance over power saving.

My begonia is buggered. Simon said it was buggered when I bought it and that I had chosen the wrong one, to be honest I'm beginning to think that he was right. Though it would help if I would remember to water it now and again, THAT is why all the flowers that are out at present have gone brown because I forgot to water it, not because of any other reason lol I have given it a bloody good water, can't remember whether it was yesterday or the day before So I had better check the dryness of it and water it again, as long as I don't drown it.

We need a watering can, the cheeseplant is awkward to water because if you try and do it with a cup the plant gets in the way and I have to water my begonia at the sink because it's the only way to actually get in and under all the foliage to the compost, even then our tap is a stupid shape so makes watering very difficult, so we need a little watering can, trouble is the cheapest small one I saw was £10 at the garden centre! Maybe Big D has a cheap watering can. *plots and plans to go there next week*

Euan keeps nagging for the clone costume (Starwars Clone wars) he desperately wants a helmet and the laser gun and the white costume so that he can play star wars clone wars, I keep telling him that all he has to do is IMAGINE that he is in that costume and he keeps arguing that he has nothing white so he can LOOK like a clone. I don't know how much these things are though I'll have to have a look online and see if I can afford to at least get him the helmet.

Right, I'm finished waffling now.

Ni ni.

long time

It has been a long time since I have blogged, it's not that I've not had time or that I've not particularly had something to blog about, it's because I am stupidly inanely addicted to facebook applications at the moment and need to get a life, my absolute favourite at the moment is bowling buddies, I'm ranked 24 I think I last looked, I don't think I'll ever get any higher because I'm crap at it lol, I have a good run and get like three strikes in a row, then I'll end up getting like 3 or 4 pins down which drags my score back down to a loser's score heheh.

The farm is quite a good one too, I've not worked out how to tend for other people's farms yet because when I have gone to them to help out there's nothing that says "this is wrong can you fix it" like it used to do, so obviously without it telling me what is actually wrong, I don't know how to fix it.

My leg is stinging at the moment, I used the epilady epilator that I bought a while ago for the first time on very hairy legs today and am regretting it because it was like having lots of little needles stuck in me, I guess that was a waste of money then eh? :( I want an easier way to de-hair myself without having to shave in the bath because I hate getting the shaven hairs everywhere which is why I have to have a shower after a bath to clean all the scum, shave foam and hairs off me. I enjoy having a bath but it's not the most hygienic of methods :S

I should have a bath today actually but I cannot be bothered, it would do me good to warm up my body because at the moment I am sitting here shivering I am so cold (must find my jumper) *puts jumper on* still cold, going to have to have a bath soon to warm me up heheh. Though I'll only freeze again when I get out of the bath heheh. Saying that I have the bath that hot that it will keep me warm for a fair time.

I just so cannot be bothered! lol Not right now anyway, it'll have to wait. Simon is off out to the post office and cashpoint, I think whilst he's out I'll grab a bite to eat, I am actually quite hungry as well as tired and cold, maybe if I feed the fire it might stoke up a bit and warm me up more. I have to eat something for the tablets to sit on anyway instead of having them on an empty stomach all of the time.

I have just text SImon and asked him to get some chocolate from Tesco, I have a huge craving for some chocolate lol I had a craving the other day which wasn't sated because they didn't have any chocolate left and so sent me empty handed boohoo I want chocolate! I bet he ignores me and doesn't get any because he wants to save my money, I'm not allowed to spend it on my self you see I'm only allowed to spend it on Simon hahah

Simon's skink is in hiding again today which is upsetting Si because he wants to see him out and enjoying his home instead of him hiding all of the time. He needs time to settle in but he should be basking as well and enjoying the rest of the space that he has by exploring it and seeing what he can get up to.

Simon's snake got scared off whilst it was about to eat the mouse so it carried the mouse off which means there is a risk that the snake could have ingested some coconut fibre whilst eating the mouse, if this is true then it could become compacted and die. Hopefully it will be alright though. Snakey is SUPPOSED to be inquisitive now it has settled in and searching around it's surroundings and looking up at people that go past and generally being social but it's just in hiding all the time, I've not seen it for ages, Simon hasn't either. He's got a pair of hidey reptiles lol

At least the chameleon is out most of the time and doesn't try and run and hide, SOMETIMES when it gets scared it will try and climb into it's own bottom on the roof of the flexarium, not knowing where else to go, he does that if Oscar has sneaked in and is watching him, Rex doesn't like Oscar watching him. Maybe Rex thinks that Oscar is a predator to him, perhaps he is, perhaps Rex could beat the crap out of Oscar and be the champion lol. He gets confused and upset when someone becomes higher than him too, he tries to get higher and higher to be higher than the person that is looking at him, I can only get higher by standing on the stool so I only stand on the stool if I really have to, thus making sure I never stand taller than him and upset him.

Anyway I'm waffling on about complete crap again so I'm going to bog off and get something yummy to eat now, I might have marmalade on toast, or spam baps, or something equally as yummilicious :)

Bye bye

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