Bronny left Primary School Today

Big milestone today, Bronnys last day at Primary School, boy is she going to miss her teachers and friends.

It seems like only last week that she was leaving nursery to start at Primary, now she's getting ready to start high school! Woweee time flies.

It was a tearful day for her today as she doesn't want to leave, she says she's going to miss Mrs Davies the most. A lot of her friends are going to different schools, I think there are two other children in her class, I think she said that anyway.

Still got to finish off paying for her uniform before she starts in September, need to buy her shirts and trousers too. I wish I was made of money lol, though I'd end up being nothing as money burns a hole in my pockets lol.

Euan needs new trousers and polo shirts for school too, though his stuff won't be as expensive as Bronny's.

It's all money though, I don't know how people manage it. Maybe there's a secret like always ensuring you have someone to hand me down from lol.

Kids didn't get a place on the chase it course, which is all my fault for not sorting it out sooner, so they just have holiday club to go to on the days that they're not supposed to be on trips. Hopefully that in itself will be fun though, I can't see them charging £15 a day for the children to just sit around bored. (we're covered by a grant before you wonder where the hell we're getting the money from)

So all in all hopefully this holiday will be a lot better than years previous, we'll have to see.

I think I've upset my Mum somehow, she hardly ever replies to my texts any more, I often have to send her two or three texts to get one single answer and even then sometimes I get no answer at all.

Oh well.

Huggles for now xxxx

Scared

I watched paranormal activity with Simon on Wed night and am beginning to wish that I hadn't. I have never been so affected by a film, not that I can recall anyway. I'm scared of being on my own, I'm scared of the dark, I keep hearing things and I can't sleep through at all anymore, I think it's partly due to having caffeine again so I have to get some decaf teabags asap. Which will be next weekend now as this weekend will be spent on rent :/

I keep seeing things out of the corner of my eye too which is really disturbing, I really wish I hadn't watched it, I'm so stupid as I know that type of film upsets me :/ I'm hoping it will wear off soon so I can sleep better, obviously I'm awake through the night anyway but nowhere near as much as the last few nights :/

Have you ever watched a film that has freaked you out for days? :/ xxxx

Huggles xxx

Life is what you make of it…

So they say, but sometimes things happen that you cannot help, and you are forced to live life that way instead. If only I wasn’t poorly, all the things we could have done over the years as a family, all the stuff I have missed out on, even playing ball games with the children in the back garden are a no go.

Imiss life sometimes. Mostly I just buckle on and get used to life and understand that this is the way it is going to be, I am far better off than some people on this earth, at least I still have my hearing, my eyesight (most of the time) and the ability to talk, and I have two legs and two arms that don’t quite work right but they are still there and I can still cuddle my children in my arms and know I’m doing it.

The day that will signify the end to me is the day that I start to forget happy memories, the ones that are burnt into my head deeper than any other memory in my head. When I start to forget them I may as well be no longer. Gruesome eh? Unfortunately that’s the way I feel.

Oh effin great, Euan has just come in to my bedroom with the gun that I bought him on Sunday (which arrived Tuesday) in two pieces, he can’t keep anything safe! He says he trod on it. Little sod, he doesn’t have a care for anything on this planet. He needs to learn that things cost money and money DOES NOT GROW ON TREES. OR come from up my arse. lol

Typical child, can’t keep anything for more than five minutes, I don’t think there is ANYTHING that I have given him or even leant to him that has not got broken, OK the DS is in one piece but he chewed the stylus beyond use. He’s always chewing on something, he spent a week chewing all the buttons off his school shirts and couldn’t understand why I was so mad with him. He’s just daft in the head is that lad of mine.

Anyway, no point moaning about it, complaining isn’t going to bring anything back now is it? Nope lol

I feel rather ill today with pain and I am very tired indeed. Perhaps tomorrow will be a better day, perhaps not, we’ll have to wait and see.  I have found the least I do the day before and the better night sleep I have, the better the tomorrow.

Well that’s about it for this episode peeps.

 

Huggles and stuff.

 

xx