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Well, I survived the night, *sticks her fingers up at Death* sorry mate but you ain't gettin me yet! rofl

I've gotta stop thinking and talking about it, it's sending me around the bend, but what am I supposed to do, "oh you probably had a heart attack", "oh never mind such is life" and carry on the way I'm going? No I want to look at life and see what I can change to stop it happening again. Trouble is I have all but one of the symptoms of heart disease, but as already proved I have all the symptoms of various other things too, I could write a list as long as my arm of complaints that I have according to my symptoms... which is why I have stopped googling stuff, simply because I could scare myself half to death thinking about it.

The main bonus about seeing that Senior Registrar at the hospital on Thursday is that he said he was pretty damn sure that I had fibromyalgia, thank you, now diagnose it for me please Mr! I should have taken a photocopy of the ecg and given it to pain management and rheumy chaps to say, think again and diagnose me for heaven sake!

I'm in a good mood today considering the situation I am in... I survived the night, which was my main concern considering how I felt when I went to bed last night.. This morning/today I feel so grottily ill it is unbelievable. Sicky, tired, headache, dizzy, strange feelings in chest, all symptoms for today. Perhaps I do have heart disease and it's come on strong all of a sudden, yet my symptoms should be alleviated by the aspirin, perhaps it is the aspirin making me feel ill, I don't know.

I might not take the aspirin tomorrow and see how I feel by the evening, I may be asking for trouble, but then again if this aspirin is making me feel so sicky and dizzy and vertigo really bad then I want to stop taking it so that I can feel oK again. I'm thinking I wasn't taking it before and I'm not dead now so what is the harm in carrying on and not taking it, Doc said if it aggravated my gastric reflux too much then I'd have to consider the options of putting up and shutting up, or taking the risk and not taking it anymore.

Simon's lizard Bob (the Skink) has shed again today, bless him he's done everything he can to take off his skin including going through the water bowl and pushing himself along the tiles and the slate and pushing himself through the plant instead of going under it.

Bronny and Simon are playing COD4, the reason why I actually have my lappy is because Euan has been banned from the PC for a week for having a humungous tantrum on Wednesday, so Bronny is on the PC, thus freeing up my laptop for little old me to go on rofl.

I phoned my Dad last night and talked to him about various things, I can tell that he's worried even though he says there's no point in worrying, we've made the decision not to tell Mum until she gets back from Germany so as not to worry her whilst she's over there and not here so she can't do anything. To be honest she cannot physically do anything to help me anyway unless she has a cure for whatever I have so I can start a gentle regime of exercise so that I can alleviate some of the problems, it might aggravate them too though so I don't know.

Bronny has cottoned on that there is SOMETHING wrong but obviously I am not going to tell her the full story because I'll have her having nightmares that I died again or she'll not be able to sleep again and she'll be constantly all over me.

Euan, as usual is none the wiser, which is how I want it to be, he wouldn't understand even if I told him though so no loss there. lol

Oscar cat hasn't had his "morning fuss" as yet, he normally comes to me for a good old stroke and a sit down on my lap, but it was a short meow to say hello, he sat on my lap for all of 2 seconds and then buggered off to see Bronny I can only presume. Some days he's all for fussing, but then other days a fuss is the last thing that he wants.

Next door keep slamming the damn back door again, it shakes this wall that I am leaning up (the wall between our bedrooms) and feels like the floor is going to fall through. They are always slamming the door, I don't think they know how to close the door quietly, seriously, it's terrible, they all do it, not just the kids. The other day there was some kids outside the house and no word of a lie the door got opened and severely slammed about 20 times or possibly even more.

Rex is on the move again, he's been around his enclosure about five times bless him, he needs the larger enclosure now, but I don't know what Simon plans to do about it because he needs the one in between the one he has now and the large one that his predecessor has. I don't know whether we will get it or not, or how we are going to go about it. He's been shedding alot lately too. Growing Lizards, Simon must be doing something right lol

Bronny is now playing on MOSHI Monsters, which I am pleased about because I have paid £4.95 for a month's membership heheh. Simon will kill me if he finds out. He thinks it's a waste of money, it probably is, but still, never mind.

I have to check the rent balance at some point, I don't think we're going to have enough to be able to give him on Tuesday (when my disability comes through) because I have spent so much of the money on shopping, I did a shop and then did a top up shop for things I had forgotten which both probably equated to £150, and there was another shop on top of that I believe. I'll have to have a looksee.

I think that's enough waffling for now, I've actually run out of things to say which is amazine for me I must say! ROFL


Bye bye :)