A fresh Autumn morning

Window is open to get rid of the condensation that has built up on the window due to the central heating now being put on. I can tell just by the little breeze that is coming through that it's rather fresh out there this morning, and why did I mention Autumn? As I can see next door's tree with a few Autumn coloured leaves left on it but mainly bare. Autumn has certainly come at last. I like Autumn because it is cooler than Summer yet not quite cold enough to hurt the face when you go out.

Simon has gone out this morning, most probably with his hat on, having no hair his head and ears hurt in the cold because there is no protection for them hahah. He's gone out to the garden centre to buy a water dish for Bob and some new snake bowls for the stripe, speckled and the corn. With having mites they are trying to get in their water bowls to ease themselves of the itch, but their bowls are way too small for them, bless, hopefully we'll get rid of the mite problem when the spray arrives though, I can't stand the thought of my poor snakes being eaten by damn parasites.

He's also gone out to get a hide for Bob, Bob is very upset and stressed because he hasn't got anywhere to hide at the moment as Si emptied his housing of bedding, plants and tiles yesterday, there's one tile in there, that's been soaked to make sure there are no mites in it, to protect the pond liner from the heat lamp. Other than that it's the brick sides and pond liner for a floor, so he's not a happy Bob at all.

Euan brought a violin home last week, I didn't believe him when he said he was going to have his own violin to practice on at home. Bless him he plucks it very well and his beautiful singing voice is a treat I can tell you :) It's so soft and beautiful :) He has violin lessons on a Thursday and has to practice the violin for the rest of the week at home. Hopefully he will learn some new songs as the one he does at present has worn out lol

Bronny does Art Club and ICT now, Art Club explains itself in the title, but in ICT they are making an animation, Bronny has to draw her picture, take a picture of it, then draw another same picture with the arms slightly moved for instance and take another picture. I can't remember who she said she was working with but she enjoys ICT Club. She likes Art Club as well, but Euan went last week and just messed about which embarrassed her and annoyed her, she came out and said to Simon, "Euan is doing my head in" lol

Any more news to report?

Oh, I have a tooth extraction tomorrow which I am definitely not looking forward to, my tooth is the wisdom tooth at the back of my mouth on your left, the thing that worries me is that the roots are curled and not straight so it's going to be a mare to take it out, I'd much rather go to sleep for the process lol Simon has to wait in the waiting room, the paperwork said it's usually 20 minutes up to an hour to take it out! Oh my what a long time to be sitting crapping myself in the dentist's chair. I really wish they would send me to sleep lol PURLEASE let me SLEEP! hahah

Then on 10th December I have my neurology appointment, I will be surprised if they find anything this time round or even suggest anything to do, I mean what more can they do, they completed every test possible (I think) and all results came back as "normal". What oh what is wrong with moi? :(

I'd very much like a diagnosis so at least I have a label to put on it, that way when people ask me what is wrong I do not have to sit embarrassed and eke out an "I don't know" it seems so blank, the only thing that is VISIBLY wrong with me is the oxygen, if it were not for that they would just see a fat woman in a wheelchair, and like I do to various people who I see out.. They will say "If she lost some weight she'd be better"

I don't know what is wrong, I wish I did, even if it was something simple I would like to know. It's not the meds as I have been weaned off them and the symptoms that I was put on the meds for got worse again, so it's not the meds that are creating the side effects. Although, looking at the possible symptoms on the medication paperwork, you would think that it is the meds, but it's strange because all the meds I have been prescribed explain that some of the side effects are what the medication has been prescribed to prevent? Strange!

I had all the symptoms before going on the medication though and we worked on each one as and when needed so it's definitely not the medication which people are suggesting.

I'd rather know I'm dying than not know anything? That's deeper than it seems, what I am trying to say is that I just really really really REALLY want to know what is wrong with me? Pretty please?

Whilst I am sitting here typing this I have pain in my feets, pain in my calfs and shins, my knees ache back and front and inside, I have pain in my thighs and whatever the back bit is called, I have a LOT of pain in my hips which is getting far far worse it really is, OUCHIES, my back hurts as if I have broken it (I have felt the pain of a broken bone so don't lecture me telling me that how do I know what that feels like) my chest hurts, the muscles that surround the ribs at the back hurt, my shoulders hurt, my elbows hurt, my wrists hurt, my fingers all are bordering on being numb although I am using them to type, my neck REALLY hurts and my eyes hurt and keep going double vision, I also keep going rather dizzy and nauseous. Going to have to raid the cupboards for something to eat soon too.

Sorry for that, out of my system now heheh I really shouldn't vent on my blog, the poor people that still read it don't want to hear it.

Right I'm off, too hungry to do anymore

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